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I remember how this goes! Or not. But sort of. [Dec. 13th, 2011|06:52 am]
Marissa Lingen
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One of my friends recently wrote in a locked post that it was amazing how much experience and maturity looked like weariness from where he was sitting. I had to smile, because that happens here, too. And as much as it's sometimes sad and wearying to know that I've been on a road before, it can be extremely useful to know where the signs go.

And here it is Santa Lucia Day, and I have made the lussekatter.

I think if I made them more than twice a year*, it would get into a rhythm faster, a routine, a place where I would never say, "This is not going to work." But lussekatter. They are not for every day. They are for Santa Lucia Day.** And as a result, I always have the stage of "oh no this has gone horribly awry." On the other hand, if I didn't make other breads, I might also not despair, because I would have a healthy cushion of ignorance: "Is this normal? What do you get when you cross an elephant and a rhino!*** Onwards!" But instead I make a lot of other breads that are not white breads, and they are much more substantial, and so I peer dubiously. I keep saying that I have come to accept that the peering dubiously is part of the process, and yet I don't think I really mean it. There are all sorts of things that are part of fighting back the darkness year after year that you think you're prepared for, and then you're not, but you do it anyway. You do. What else is there?

This year, exactly half of the lussekatter did not rise further in the oven. They just...didn't. Usually they do, the other tray did, and this tray didn't. This is not a sign. This is not an omen. What it is, is a little dense maybe, a little chewier than we expected. But they taste fine, and I don't know what I could have done differently, so I am resolved not to worry about it. Flattish saffron goodness: fine.

So okay, you people. I've done my part. The sun can come back now; I'm ready. Whatever you have to do on your end to keep the world turning, you go on ahead and do it. It's time now. Happy Santa Lucia Day.

*The first time in each calendar year is for timprov's birthday. He doesn't like cake. Everybody should get the baked thing they want for their birthday. His is lussekatter. We'd move his birthday, but he finds mid-December no more congenial than mid-February.

**And Tim's birthday.

***My family would be nearly unable to speak if we couldn't communicate in punchlines. This is one of the rare occurrences where the punchline is assumed instead.

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[User Picture]From: zalena
2011-12-13 01:27 pm (UTC)
Elephino!
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[User Picture]From: mrissa
2011-12-13 01:29 pm (UTC)
Yes, but what do you get when you cross an elephant and a kangaroo?
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[User Picture]From: mrissa
2011-12-13 03:37 pm (UTC)
That's good. The canonical answer is "great big holes in Australia." But we will also accept "elephangaroo!" because it's so much fun to say.
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[User Picture]From: lollardfish
2011-12-13 01:53 pm (UTC)
http://www.lib.umn.edu/bell/tradeproducts/saffron

I think I'm a better writer now. I hope I am!
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[User Picture]From: mrissa
2011-12-13 03:39 pm (UTC)
It's like your Mrissalarm went off.
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[User Picture]From: pegkerr
2011-12-13 03:09 pm (UTC)
Our lussekatter this morning was delicious. Bless her heart, Fiona made a special trip home from college to whip up a batch last night so we'd have some this morning. I've never made it myself, but it's become an important enough tradition to me that I will continue to make it once she's moved on to establish her own household.

Thanks again for the recipe.
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[User Picture]From: mrissa
2011-12-13 03:39 pm (UTC)
I'm so glad you've been enjoying it.
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[User Picture]From: leahbobet
2011-12-13 04:06 pm (UTC)
One of my friends recently wrote in a locked post that it was amazing how much experience and maturity looked like weariness from where he was sitting.

...yes. Yes. Yes. Sigh. Yes.

Sometimes one does wish that one was immature enough to just pitch a screaming fit over things, but one knows it won't take anyone anywhere they want to be, and so.

Sigh.
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[User Picture]From: mrissa
2011-12-13 04:52 pm (UTC)
The other night I was so tired that I wanted to put my arms up and demand, "CARRY ME!" like Lillian did.

But alas, I am no longer 4 and had to haul my own carcass to bed.
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[User Picture]From: leahbobet
2011-12-13 10:08 pm (UTC)
...yeah. I would like to be able to invoke a once-annual CARRY ME.
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[User Picture]From: moiread
2011-12-13 04:53 pm (UTC)
I cleaned my apartment and make a little less than five dozen cookies, because I was fed up with hiding and wanting to cry all the time. Now my people will have cookies. So high five for that!
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[User Picture]From: athenais
2011-12-13 05:24 pm (UTC)
Sorry your second tray didn't rise. My dough didn't rise, to my surprise, because I didn't think about the house being too cold. I put it in a warmed oven for another hour and then the yeast got things going. I am excited to bring some to Swedish class tonight. I will get Pia to sing us a Lucia song as I don't know any. Next year I will try out your recipe. I am not sure the one I used is a keeper.
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[User Picture]From: mrissa
2011-12-13 07:15 pm (UTC)
Bay Area houses are cold! It is a scourge of the region!
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[User Picture]From: carbonel
2011-12-13 07:04 pm (UTC)
Elephant rhino sine theta? (I see the canonical answer above, but if it works for grapes, it ought to work for rhinos.)
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[User Picture]From: mrissa
2011-12-13 07:15 pm (UTC)
if it works for grapes, it ought to work for rhinos.

You will live a very surprising life if you go on this assumption!
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From: swan_tower
2011-12-13 08:10 pm (UTC)
Rhinowine!
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[User Picture]From: carbonel
2011-12-13 07:06 pm (UTC)
One of my friends recently wrote in a locked post that it was amazing how much experience and maturity looked like weariness from where he was sitting.

Did he reference Heinlein? I believe his line is "It's amazing how much 'mature wisdom' resembles being too tired," though I don't have time to get TEfL and look it up.
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From: swan_tower
2011-12-13 08:11 pm (UTC)
Yay lussekatter. We do not have a tradition of baking it here, but I seem to have formed a tradition of looking forward to and reading and smiling at your lussekatter-baking posts, so there's that.
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[User Picture]From: mrissa
2011-12-13 08:12 pm (UTC)
We each observe holidays in our own way!
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[User Picture]From: dichroic
2011-12-13 08:39 pm (UTC)
Yeah, me too. I may not get to light Hanukah candles this year due to traveling (though maybe I will; we brought candles and aluminum foil specifically in order to improvise menorahs) so I'm glad I didn't miss the annual lussekatter post.

Sorry the dough didn't fully cooperate, but I think there's a pretty good ritual meaning in "a little chewier but they taste fine" too.
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[User Picture]From: cissa
2011-12-15 02:24 am (UTC)
I didn't make these again this year. Sigh.

Maybe next year- and I'm glad some one is holding to the traditions.
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