I now know that there is in the world--in my house, in fact--video of me walking in the snow with my grandpa at about age 3 or so. We went out to feed the birds, hand in hand, and I ran a little, and he came and scooped me up. And it was...just so very us.
Really hard to come upon it unknowing, but so good that it exists.
Dear universe: I will let you know when I am okay with this death thing, but for now the answer is still no.