Marissa Lingen (mrissa) wrote,
Marissa Lingen

Cue low strings

You know how you feel when you're waiting for an important medical test result, or when someone said they'd let you know about a job by a certain time which is fast approaching, or when you've said something emotionally revelatory and important in a letter or an e-mail and haven't heard back from the person, or...? You know the feeling. Jittery, nervous, edged with dread.

I have no idea why I feel that way. I cannot come up with anything that should make me nervous today or in upcoming days. Dinner, ice cream with my dad, picking up markgritter at the airport...there just isn't anything nervous-making for awhile now. And yet here it is, the dark cloud, the ominous music. It seems to be all neurochemical, or perhaps spinomuscular. I can't see any reason I should be filled with foreboding.

I feel like I felt after the tornado, like I want to put my hands on my loved ones and just make sure they're still there, even though I know they are and there's no reason for them not to be.
Tags: stupid brain tricks

  • Post a new comment


    Anonymous comments are disabled in this journal

    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened